Parislog 62
September 19, 2006

I went back to the ANPE (employment office) today that specializes in the fashion industry. The last time I was there, I had been told that I had to go get my initial appointment before I could have an appointment. That turned out to be a huge amount of work and a whole other appointment to get that appointment but I got it all done. Now I went to get the original meeting that I had wanted. I wanted to speak with someone there who could help guide me with what I should be looking for in the fashion industry that would help to eventually open my own business.

I got there. I waited in line. I got to the front. I asked for my appointment. The clerk took my employment number and looked me up in the computer then told me that I couldn’t have an appointment because I was registered at another office. I would have to be able to convince them to change my registry to their office. That isn’t going to happen. According to them, if I don’t have a degree or experience then they aren’t going to help me in that field. They decide for me and for the businesses whether or not I am allowed to go in that direction.

I WANT TO SCREAM. Why do they get to decide what I can and can’t do? Why do they get to decide that I have no value in the industry that I want to be in? Why do they get to run my life? And why do they get to call themselves and employment office? It doesn’t seem to me that they are trying to get me employed and in a way that would make me happy.

I swear, I walked out of there and had to sit on the steps and collect myself because I was starting to cry in utter frustration. I want to do this so much and it feels like they don’t want to help me here.

Curse word!!!!!!!!!!